My room hasn’t been clean in months. My head is a cloudy mess. My body isolated from society. I haven’t left my bed besides to binge eat in two weeks. I don’t remember the last time I showered. My friends gave up on me. I don’t blame them. Maybe I should get out of bedContinue reading “Emma Carter (Pt. 1)”
Self Care
Self care is laughing at yourself instead of beating yourself up. Self care is going to sleep at 8pm because you’re tired. Self care is eating when you’re hungry. Self care is not buying yourself things you don’t need, in hopes that it’ll cure your broken mind. It’s letting yourself be upset, and doing somethingContinue reading “Self Care”
He lied comfortingly.
“I know how you feel.” He lied comfortingly. “I’m not sure I believe you.” I said, awkwardly fiddling with my hands. “I know, but you will. You just need time.” He said, and I stupidly believed him. His lies were reoccurring. Comfort grew in his lies. Our relationship crumbled, but I couldn’t bear to liveContinue reading “He lied comfortingly.”
Snowy February Night
The cold, crisp February air turns my face red, something you’ve always been good at, too. We’re standing outside as the snow falls around us. It’s not the first snowfall of the year, but it’s the first in a while. A flake falls onto your nose and we laugh. I’m filled with a joy onlyContinue reading “Snowy February Night”
A year’s time.
Mid-summer. Sticky air. The sun set at 8 pm, now it was 9. The stars were out. The humidity ran high, but so did our spirits. We all had the weekend off from work. We could be out all night if we wanted. The possibilities were endless. We sat on the beach, the sand stillContinue reading “A year’s time.”
springtime.
I love the spring The hopeful air, Knowing we made it through another winter. I love the smell of open windows, That first warm day. What a relief it is, My depression has lessened And I feel whole. The bitter darkness inside me Has turned sky blue. Clouds scatter the sky, As though leaving myContinue reading “springtime.”
What to expect from Lauren Writes Too
So, I’ve wanted to start a website for my writing for a long time. Like, since I started writing. But I never knew what to put on it and where to begin. So, I’ve done some thinking and I think, for now, this is what you can expect from me. On Saturdays, I’ll post aContinue reading “What to expect from Lauren Writes Too”
I Will Recover (Poem)
I’m done fucking lying to myself, Keeping things in just because it hurts. When I’m in pain, I’ll talk about it. I’ll work through it. I’ll get over it. And I’ll be stronger for it. I’m sick of being a bystander in my own life, Watching as things just happen. As I make a friend,Continue reading “I Will Recover (Poem)”
I Want To Care About Myself (POEM)
I want to matter. Not to you, To myself. I care what you think, But I don’t want to. I wish I cared less What you think of me And more what I think of me. Because I’m the one who will be here when life gets hard again No one else is guaranteed. SoContinue reading “I Want To Care About Myself (POEM)”
Depression VS The Fighter in Me
I’ve never been good at love, I’ve never been good at anything. I’ve never wanted to be better, Until I met you. I had no reason to stop my self-destructive behavior. You made me realize I’m worth more. You made me want to love myself. You make me want to be better. Everyone left andContinue reading “Depression VS The Fighter in Me”
Lauren Hayden 