And I didn’t think
I could feel so strongly
but then I met you
and I wasn’t bitter
anymore
New Adult Mystery and Adventure Novelist
And I didn’t think
I could feel so strongly
but then I met you
and I wasn’t bitter
anymore
I would love you despite your feelings
Leave so I can love you harder
Come back to a warm bed
but it’s not mine
like it once was
you’re not mine
like you once were
and that’s fine
I love you still the same
I miss the ocean
and I miss the mountains, too
I never thought after all this time
I’d be missing you like I do.
But I missed the smell of spring
and that came back as always,
and I know someday you’ll miss me, too,
and it puts me in a haze.
It was warm
I felt whole
you smiled at me
and I knew
I’d be alright.
We’d get through winter
and all its cold nights
and we already got through February
and for some reason
it’s warm today
and we’re sitting outside
drinking pink lemonade
like it’s summer already
and you look at me
and you smile
and I smile, too
and we know
we’re exactly where we should be.
It’s 5 am
the rain is pouring
coming down heavy
enveloping my sadness
as I lay here
unable to sleep
and I wonder
I wonder what you’re doing
I know you were always
one to be up at this hour.
And I feel closer to you
than I ever did when we
were together.
Maybe it’s better this way
maybe I’m happier like this:
love,
but from a distance.
You can’t hurt me from here.
And I didn’t think I cared as deeply as I did
but when you left and I was alone
I realized
I would give you
the moon
if given the chance.
When the sun is about to set
and your face is illuminated
with an orange-yellow glow
and the world around us is, too
and the grass is green,
the flowers are blooming,
the smell of spring is in the air;
we have made it through winter.
The window open,
a newly cleaned room,
a cup of tea
cooling on the windowsill.
With nothing left to do today,
I relax and enjoy
the smell of nature,
the sunshine peeking in,
my cup of tea,
and a good book.
And I don’t think I knew what love was
when I said I loved you
and I don’t think I meant it when I said it,
but I said it anyway
and you said it back
and at the time I didn’t know the implications
that we would matter
that we would be closer
that we would care about each other
and I never felt any of that
but I wanted to
I wanted to feel love
I wanted to know what it meant
to have someone you care about
but you can’t force that kind of love,
it comes on its own
and I want to believe it’s worth the wait
and I thought it was funny at the time
the way you tore down everything I built
and I remember I laughed
when I caught you in yet another lie
and I remember thinking
I’d be better with you in my life
well
then why am I thriving now?